June 13, 2009
Sometimes, I feel like I’ve come so far in life. I feel like I’ve really gained wisdom, skill, and maturity. Other times, I feel like I’ve made exactly zero progress. I’m pretty sure that’s a common feeling among human beings, but it doesn’t make it any easier. Days like today just take everything and throw it right out the window for no genuinely good reason. All over something truly, truly stupid. And that makes me worry even more, because what will I do when something truly big and scary comes along, and I have to face it? Will I rise to the occasion? Will all the stupid setbacks finally add up to a lesson that finally takes root and gives me the power to face the big stuff? I sure hope so, because all this backsliding and beating myself up over stupid unfinished business is getting old. See you soon.
